The day stress kicked the bucket.

This year is different. This is year is the beginning of something good. Every body is back from holidays and we started our second semester off with a week of theology in mission. I was amazed to see the transformation that took place in everyone over the holidays. The majority of Kaleo's came back with renewed spirits, and ready to take on this next semester. Although my break was very relaxing and much needed, it has only been a week and my stress level has rocketed back to where it was last semester. I received an email saying I was on academic probation and I knew that was coming because of all the classes I took last semester and failed. I am okay with that. I know that there is so much more than just academic learning here at Kaleo and yes it would be nice to pass even a course or two but whenever I get stressed about school I turn to God and say, "Do what you will, I will try but I need you so that I can try harder". He assures me that His will for me at Kaleo is not to stress out. This is my new years resolution for 2011. However this year presents even more reasons to get stressed than before. If I continue to fail my courses I can get kicked out, if I don't raise $3250 in less than a month I won't be going to India, if I don't stay positive and hold on to hope I will continue to go on a downward spiral to Hell, if I don't pass my drivers test I will let it expire and never know how to drive, if I don't apply for school now I won't go to school in the fall. Writing this down has made me aware of all the pressures that are present in my life. I can not handle all this by myself. I need God who cares even for the lilies and the grass.

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." -Matt 6:34

Today will be the day stress ceases to exist in me.