So sorry its been a while... I have no excuse. However the Kaleo's went to Mount Washington the past week after a very intensely stressful week of homework and fundraising. I still have a crazy amount of funds to raise and time is running out. I am so greatly blessed and thankful times a million for those who have already helped and support me. The homework situation is too deep and I can't even start to think of where to begin. I really want to get rid of this stress and anxiety. I want to be normal again. I want God to be my best friend again. I get it, this is character building but I am sure that all the people around me are tired of this crazy version of what should be me. I know I am not like this, at least I know I never used to be like this and I know that God does not want me to be this way. But with all this pressure what am I supposed to do. How am I supposed to deal? Well.. if anyone has any suggestions please feel free to throw them out here.
Mount Washington was amazing! It was very relaxing and I had an awesome bonding time with Sarah which was great because she has been someone I wish I had known since September but for some reason we are only getting to know each other now. I love it. I also realized how much I love snow boarding! We started giving out Kaleo names which I think is a cool idea I'm not sure if it is all that meaning full. The words that go along with the name are more important for sure which makes it better. Anyways my name is "Abundance" I don't really remember why something to do with child like faith and over flowing delight. I think its because I like to eat buns while dancing.
Today was a stressful but amazing day. I did my first ever soup and bun fundraiser at church which went over really well I thought. I was as usual, completely stressed out and hard to get along with which ended up in an emotional mess. However Steve and I managed to raise a good amount which gave me hope for reaching my goal. I now have $500 towards my India missions trip and have $2700 left to raise. I think this on top of school and life is too much for me to handle. Please be praying for my sanity. February 1st is the deadline. God is big I just need to remind myself of that and leave it up to Him to work his magic.
Lynnea, Steve and I all went to our church youth group for the first time which ended up to be an even bigger blessing than I had thought. I got to hang out with some youth I have been seeing and chatting with in Sunday school and build on those relationships and also run around and get some exercise playing doge ball (training for India). It was sweet. I realized that this type of ministry is my strong point and I got a strong sense that God would call me to helping in the youth group after Kaleo is done. This is what I have been waiting for all year. After youth was done I felt a huge weight off my shoulders, I can breathe again. Take a breath Mary everything will be alright. Many blessings and much love, Marizzle.
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