Grace

I think that grace is an art that we have not yet perfected and we need to realize that this year or more like the five months we have left will be hard and not easy but every time we get upset or "hate on" things such as camp qwanoes actually mostly camp qwanoes the more bitter we will become and the harder our hearts will get. This is a year of grace and sometimes we just need to be reminded of that. We need to let go of the things that are causing us to be angry or grumpy or creating a wall between us and Jesus. I know that probably sounds really cheesey but I'm just trying to get my thoughts down in kind of a readable way so that people might understand what I am talking about. These past months in Kaleo have made me so bitter and the past week I could actually feel my heart turn to stone and I wasn't going to let anyone know what was going on in my life and I really just didn't want to talk to anyone and I pretty much just wanted to make a small little fort with room for just one under my desk and fall asleep and I wouldn't even care if I woke up in the morning or not. There was a wall there and I could feel something trying its hardest to break through that wall and I tryed my best to stay strong and not let anything through that barrier. Then Friday night came and my heart melted. Just so you know, that hard up act I was putting on only lasted a week. Jesus was fighting pretty hard for me and that is why I love him. There is no way that I could give people grace without help from Jdawg. Grace is a gift and us Christians are people who enjoy giving. So in conclusion, this is just a reminder for myself that I need to be aware of grace and where it is needed most in my life I guess its a reminder to all who read this too I guess. Chow for now!

p.s. I think its really ironic becasue I am reading "Whats so amazing about grace?" right now by Philip Yancey its got some really sweet stories in it so maybe if your board you could read it.